I believe in every relationship, people can choose their best

The story

Do u think I’m crazy and stupid if I just stay together with him?

“Well, I can’t say.. u can say.. But I think u deserve to be happy.  Why u’r having relationship with mostly u’r hurted there..”

But I still wanna keep fighting for it, even his family keep ask me to be patient, and I don’t wanna dissapoint them.

“If u think u can fight for it, then just do it, if u think he would change, just follow what u feel. But u need to realize what between.. u need to see what u get, when ur having relationship in term of getting serious, then not only your heart should talk, u need to see the fact, let the fact talks also, and catch it.”

Few times I felt enough, but when I met his close people, that thing would be different, they built up back my confidence to stay with him, eventhough how hurt my feeling is… I feel cheated, dissapointed, and loose my trust on him.

“ummm.. do you still love him?”

I don’t know, maybe I just feel I don’t wanna be alone, I don’t know whether I’m ready to be alone without him. And again his family is too kind to me.

“Thing that I wanna say is, until know, he is still your companion, not even your fiance, and your relationship shouldn’t be any related with his family yet. It’s good to know that u know them and vice versa, but still both of u who own the relationship, not u with them. There shouldn’t be any interfere from any body. Both of u who decide where to go.”

Yes, I know that. But I think I might wanna try it again.

“What ever it is, I support u always, just be in mind, u can choose your own happines.”

Few months later

I think I can’t bear him.

“U know what to do.”

It hurts me alot, so much, I feel stupid! But U know what, I told him I could’t accept it anymore, but he put all his madness after me. Then he said, it’s better to be over. And I said “ok!”.

“U know what best for u, and u deserve to get.”

I know God knows the good for me.

“*I’m relieve….U should happy dear friend”

Is it the time?

have no clue

feeling distracted

can’t imagine

can’t figure out

Is it the time for me to go home and leave this country?

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Welcome~~

Today, Friday May 29, 2009

My sister just gave a birth last night!!!! baby boy!!

Congrat Mbak Ernie and Paico

I got a new nephew!!!

hardly wait to see~~

Lantern Festival

Buddha’s Birthday is the birthday of the Prince Siddhartha Gautama traditionally celebrated in East Asia on the eighth day of the fourth month in the Chinese lunar calendar, is an official holiday in South Korea.
In Korea, this day is called 석가탄신일 (Seokga tansinil), meaning "the day of Buddha’s birthday" or 부처님 오신 날 (Bucheonim osin nal) meaning "the day when Buddha arrived". Korean celebrate this day by holding lantern festival. Lotus lanterns cover the entire temple throughout the month, and big parade flooded on the street. Hanging wish paper into each lantern is one of the tradition in festival. This event also becomes famous attraction for tourists.

2,5 years I’ve been living in Korea, I experienced 3 times Lantern Festival. This festival always be one of the big festivals in Korea, which is held in Seoul. I also always excited to come to the event. In this event, we can learn to make lantern on the temple. Colorful, nice details, that is what I see from the lantern. We can also hear the korean traditional music folk and dance performance during the festival. On the evening, everyone join the parade on the street with thousands of colorful lanterns, with any shape, and any character. Usually the parade starts from Dongdaemun gate and will be end at Jonggak Intersection, where people celebrating big party there with lots of music, performances, and of course dancing together…me my self always joined the dancing part..:P And again, this experience will enrich me for knowing cultures that exist in this world, and alsooooooo my pictures collection. Here and here.

Wedding act

Now I know, being model is not easy. It might be fun but… Maybe it is because I don’t like flash from camera…and well dress up, make up… fiuhhhhhhh…

2 days I was a model..well not a real model, that day someone from embassy asked me to be a Indonesian wedding model, traditional wedding..umm not really its already modified into the modern one. Put one heavy make up ( It took around 2 hours to put it), and that big complicated wedding dress… As far as I know, my wedding dress wasn’t that complicated and big, and luxurious like this .. Anyway… after that we (me n my friend Indri) presented Indonesian wedding dress on the Flower Exhibition in Ilsan park, Goyang city, South Korea.

For Korean people, this dress, make up..and all details are totally different from what they have. And Thank God, they like us, It is sometime that is so unique and beautiful. They wanna have picture with us .. and that is the thing that made my headache , flash flash… I could still feel flash everywhere after that days.  But It was quite fun, and being proud of my own country.. Indonesia.. can be so beautiful abroad…. If I have another chance to do that again, I would love to

Cosplay time

From wikipedia: Cosplay (コスプレ, kosupure), short for “costume roleplay”,is a type of performance art whose participants outfit themselves, with often-elaborate costumes and accesories, as a specific Character or idea. Characters are usually sourced in various Japanese and East Asian media, including manga, anime, tokusatsu,  comic books, graphic novels, Video games, and fantasy movies.

I remember first time I came to the cosplay event was on my undergraduate school. It was in a university somewhere around East jakarta. I went there to accompany my crazy cousin (but I love her). She was crazy with things come from Japan, maybe now she realize how weird she acted at that time . Cosplay in Indonesia was introduced around year 2000 from Gelar Jepang Universitas Indonesia (Japanese Event in University of Indonesia) until become very famous nowadays in some cities in Indonesia.

In Seoul, I went to this event twice, doing picture hunting meet-up with friends from FIS. Here cosplay event was crazier that I ever saw, teenagers wore their costume like almost perfectly. I wonder how much money they spend for that. They become totally different person I think.  Having their own favorite character became very interesting picture object for me, it ia quite easy to take pictures of them because of some reasons. First they dress very well (read: costumed), they put on make up, and they like to pose..perfect for me..and then cosplay become one of my picture theme collections.

Spring 2009 is in

Spring is coming, flowers are blooming, cherryblossoms are everywhere…. But why I don’t feel any special this spring like before, maybe it’s because my 3rd spring, and things are almost the same

Time for hunting some spring pictures….. I’ll post soon on my Flickr

Get well soon Mom

sekarang Kamis, 2 April 2009, lagi dilab, ga ada kerjaan, bosen

2 hari yg lalu telp ke mamy sampe 2-3 kali ga diangkat2 biasanya kalo nelpon pasti langsung diangkat, kalopun ga diangkat biasanya mamy liat miskol langsung telpon balik, ini koq ga ada respon sama sekali ya…

Besokannya dikasih tau mba erni lewat YM ktnya mamy sakit, panas dingin trus n tidur seharian. Dooh knp sih sakit terus ya, padahal udah cek ga knp2… ya udah lah kemaren g telpon ke hape mamy, diangkat, n bener aja mamy sakit, ga bisa bangun ktnya, kemaren ke kamar mandi aja dituntun, ga makan seharian, sampe akhirnya maagnya jg kena, panas dingin dan sebagainya lah, tapi hari akhirnya bisa makan jg walopun cuman roti.Ga lama g telpon eh katanya udahan dulu ya dek, ternyata mamynya mo muntah…

Repotnya dirumah ga ada mba erni, mas oi, pada kerja semua, sodara2 jg pada sibuk kerja, yg ada paling pembantu, Lek Muk, and tetangga yg pada dtg sesekali  jengukin. Mamy knp sakit melulu sih…

G heran g bingung begini mulu sih, kalo kyk gini disini jg jadi ga tenang, mikirnya skr g kyknya harus plg paling ga buat sebentar aja atau buat satu weekend aja.. woaaaaaaaaaaa.. Mamy sembuh donk, dan jgn sakit2 lagi…

Tuna Spaghetti

Dulu kalo dirumah biasa masak spageti pake daging giling. Tapi karena sekarang lagi tinggal di Seoul dimana harga sapi tuh mahal banget dimana kalo g sering2 beli daging sapi bisa2 jatuh miskin disini.. *berlebihan ya.. jadilah disini daging sapi giling diganti dengan tuna, tuna kalengan lebih tepatnya karena lebih mudah dan udah dalam bentuk chunk. Bikin spageti ala g mudah koq, cuman diresepnya g ga pernah pake ukuran, jadi semua dikira2 aja sesuai feeling..:D

What?

Pasta, bentuk apa aja terserah

minyak goreng atau olive oil juga boleh

tuna kaleng, pilih yg mild aja

tomat segar, dipotong halus atau dadu2 biar nanti gampang hancurnya

saus tomat, merek apa aja tapi g ga suka yg asam, sukanya yg cenderung manis

Cheddar or parmesan cheese

Ingredients

bawang bombay, iris halus

bawang putih, cincang halus

garam

gula, dikit aja soalnya udah manis dari saus tomat

merica/lada putih

Oregano

How?

1. pasta di rebus dalam air mendidih yg ditambahin sedikit garam dan minyak, inget ya sedikit aja. rebus sampai empuk, kalo udah tirisin aja.

2. untuk sausnya, panasin minyak, tumis bawang bombay dan bawang putih sampai harum *kalo kata acara masak2 di tivi.

3. masukan tuna, tumis sebentar.

4. masukan tomat segar, garam, sedikit gula, dan merica, masak sampai tomatnya hancur.

5. tambahkan saus tomat, ini banyaknya bener2 sesuai selera.

6. kemudian masukan oregano, ada beberapa org yg suka bgt sama oregano (g suka..) jadi jumlahnya bisa disesuaikan selera. masak sampai semua bahan kecampur rata.

7. masukan sedikit air, tapi kalau dirasa udah cukup air dari tomatnya ga perlu tambahin air.

8. masak sampai kental.

9. sajikan pasta dengan disirami sausnya, tambahkan taburan keju diatasnya biar mantabbbbb….

*selamat mencoba…

I wanna travel again

After my trip to Japan (Tokyo and Kyoto), I feel that traveling can give so much fun. I wanna go again. Some of my things from Japan can be seen here. For me Tokyo is quite similar with Seoul, the modern city, but the subway is much more complicated ( I got lost for the first arrival in Tokyo subway). But Kyoto, I love it, maybe its because I’m kinda old fashion person..hihi, I like the traditional one compare to modern for sightseeing. Very traditional city, I wish I could meet geisha when I was there .

One of the tourism objects that I wanna tell is Kinkaku-ji, the golden pavilion. located in Kyoto about 30 min from Kyoto station. U can see the picture that I took here. Since I was child I always wanna go to Japan, to see the beautiful scenes and parks there. And it is.. beautiful (lucky when I was there, the weather wasn’t that cold compare to Seoul, even though it was winter, around 12 deg C). And I used to see this golden pavilion on the calendar picture, it’s kinda common picture for calendar I think. Like I said before, I had my dream to go there. Finally on that end of January 2009 I went there!!!!! yeaaaaaaaaa…. one of my childhood wish come true. I saw through my own eyes the pavilion that i used to see only on the calendar paper. Thank God.

But but, in Kyoto there are so many beautiful spots there, not only the pavilion. There is a beautiful Fushimi Inari shrine, it is a big temple with so many orange color pillars through the pathway, and it is located on a small mountain. It shamed that I came there only for 3 days, wish I could extend my stay . Hopefully I can go back there someday.s